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The bloody diamond

The bloody diamond
This is life

Welcome to the imperfect world

Welcome to the super-real world where survival comes first, much before the high alter preachings of excellence (for others only). So if you are the one who does not have to survive, or does not care - you have a choice not to remain here.

For others, please have a seat and take cover - here anything can happen anytime and you may just become a faceless co-lateral damage. Everything here is related to life and death, pains and agonies, treacheries and conspiracies, cons and deceit, treason and betrayals, despair and darkness - we just do not live in any perfect world.

BUT that is why the blog is here at all - let there be light. It aspires to show the way, to train myself and my friends in the defense against the dark arts. It is also related to hope and courage, renunciation and redemption, indomitable will and lust for life - the immortal battle with the dark side. Red flag fluttering in the gentle wind, all hands on deck, war cries in the air, daggers drawn, no quarters given nor asked, no hostages taken - we must fight till the last man standing

Rest assured, you are in good hands. These hands, with all the talents or the lack of them, with all the liveliness and the inner brooding, with the over-sized ego and the extra-ordinary humility, with all the goodness and the devilish designs - have been war veterans - they have fought for decades in the battle of survival.

Happy surviving




Love in blood

Love in blood

The inescapable war within

It is the curse of the human that we are constantly at wars. War with the Government, society, family, spouse, children, Boss, peer, friends, neighbours. Some of these are overt, some crude, some plain enmity but some are subtle, some barely palpable, some low key and guerilla types, some are cold as razors, some are dry like the funeral pyres.

Most of these cannot be own with force or when you try for winning - sometimes you have to lose to win them. Some are more like trials than wars, they never show the faces, never let you see their pimples, just shadows, the kafkaesque faceless executioners take over.

For all these, we need inner strength, we need strategies. Sometimes the objective is survival, sometimes it's plain escape from the random blades, sometimes the heady delight of beheading the enemy. Sometimes it is sheer joy to be alive, sometimes happiness comes over from a walkover or just a walkaway, without even a careless looking back. Often it is a mixed feeling - the agony, the ecstasy, the brutal orgasm or a complete disenchanted detachment - a shelter in the NOW. They sometimes need courage, need cunning finesse, sometimes ruthless lack of values of a son-of-the-bitch, sometimes daring flamboyant recklessness, maybe even stoic nonchalance. But the best of the best generals in the wars of life, always win without unnecessary bloodshed or even none of it at all.

But the most painful and fearful of all these wars are the ones with oneself. It could be a conflict between mind and heart or even the soul that holds our values dear. And this is one war that always hurts, always wounds, always bleeds one dry, always keeps one awake through the fearful night with the shadows of the beautiful lacey curtains blowing in the gentle wind and making shadows of our most intimate fears within. It is like a nation under seize, and alas, there is no escape. When you will kill yourself softly, no survival strategy ever works.



Friday, June 26, 2026

Survive from the empty talks of excellence


Have you ever come across anyone who is a perfectionist or a boss who constantly talk about excellence?? I have, both, many times 😁

 

Perfectionist people are at the top of the toxic people grade list, with 75% toxicity. Boss is a massacre, he will give you an assignment and constantly stand behind your back looking at your work with constant fault finding. This is the worst kind of Boss possible. And if your wife or spouse is one, it's pure murder.   


 

Actually there is no perfect person or system anywhere, but these people make it their lifelong mission to search for one. I had been a systems guy, by initial training in Computer science and Engineering and also later experience of more than an era, that the myth of a perfect system is a blatant lie, all systems fail, period. But the quality of a system can be judged by the frequency,  and the speed of recovery. I have seen such bugs in very good running system that can be equated with a couple of timers coming out of my kitchen. So, don't expect any person to be perfect too, and even, not the Gods, try our great books, starting with their King Indra. 

 

So, taking out the possibility of perfection, we come to the question of excellence. But most often than not, at least in the corporate, people who talk about excellence only do or mean it for others, not quite themselves. It's a easy stick to bear others with, and also a nice ploy to ride the moral high horse, these very people you will often find are imposters and masked Mr. Hyde. 

 

But of course excellence comes in different areas, the way they make a Ferrari or  Rolls, the way a Cartier Jewelry is produced. There are thousands of examples, but the time, the patience, the resources, the support, the unwavering loyalty to absolute quality and reputation mark these examples. For those in your company will shout on the need for excellence without any of those, and that marks the death of irony a thousand times. It's like Cleopatra, the nose that caused a thousand sails 😂 But sometimes, some people try to be a bit honest too, like one of my old Bosses, an extraordinary gentleman. He generally loved me, but one day in the middle of a heated argument he threw up his hands " I don't need flashes of brilliance, I need consistent mediocrity" , later I thought out that he was perfectly sensible from his position. 

 

I, personally, strongly believe that more than excellence or anything else, forget perfection, comes survival first, excellence comes much later