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The bloody diamond

The bloody diamond
This is life

Welcome to the imperfect world

Welcome to the super-real world where survival comes first, much before the high alter preachings of excellence (for others only). So if you are the one who does not have to survive, or does not care - you have a choice not to remain here.

For others, please have a seat and take cover - here anything can happen anytime and you may just become a faceless co-lateral damage. Everything here is related to life and death, pains and agonies, treacheries and conspiracies, cons and deceit, treason and betrayals, despair and darkness - we just do not live in any perfect world.

BUT that is why the blog is here at all - let there be light. It aspires to show the way, to train myself and my friends in the defense against the dark arts. It is also related to hope and courage, renunciation and redemption, indomitable will and lust for life - the immortal battle with the dark side. Red flag fluttering in the gentle wind, all hands on deck, war cries in the air, daggers drawn, no quarters given nor asked, no hostages taken - we must fight till the last man standing

Rest assured, you are in good hands. These hands, with all the talents or the lack of them, with all the liveliness and the inner brooding, with the over-sized ego and the extra-ordinary humility, with all the goodness and the devilish designs - have been war veterans - they have fought for decades in the battle of survival.

Happy surviving




Love in blood

Love in blood

The inescapable war within

It is the curse of the human that we are constantly at wars. War with the Government, society, family, spouse, children, Boss, peer, friends, neighbours. Some of these are overt, some crude, some plain enmity but some are subtle, some barely palpable, some low key and guerilla types, some are cold as razors, some are dry like the funeral pyres.

Most of these cannot be own with force or when you try for winning - sometimes you have to lose to win them. Some are more like trials than wars, they never show the faces, never let you see their pimples, just shadows, the kafkaesque faceless executioners take over.

For all these, we need inner strength, we need strategies. Sometimes the objective is survival, sometimes it's plain escape from the random blades, sometimes the heady delight of beheading the enemy. Sometimes it is sheer joy to be alive, sometimes happiness comes over from a walkover or just a walkaway, without even a careless looking back. Often it is a mixed feeling - the agony, the ecstasy, the brutal orgasm or a complete disenchanted detachment - a shelter in the NOW. They sometimes need courage, need cunning finesse, sometimes ruthless lack of values of a son-of-the-bitch, sometimes daring flamboyant recklessness, maybe even stoic nonchalance. But the best of the best generals in the wars of life, always win without unnecessary bloodshed or even none of it at all.

But the most painful and fearful of all these wars are the ones with oneself. It could be a conflict between mind and heart or even the soul that holds our values dear. And this is one war that always hurts, always wounds, always bleeds one dry, always keeps one awake through the fearful night with the shadows of the beautiful lacey curtains blowing in the gentle wind and making shadows of our most intimate fears within. It is like a nation under seize, and alas, there is no escape. When you will kill yourself softly, no survival strategy ever works.



Sunday, March 31, 2019

Survive from the Pappu effect – a question of legacy







It is painfully amusing when people like our dear Pappu and her mother claim the legacy of the stalwarts like Subhash Bose, Ballabhbhai Patel, Tilak, Ambedkar, Lala lajpat, Surya Sen or Lalbahadur Shashtri – just because Gandhi was brutally ignored when he wanted that the name of Congress be changed after independence and one family took it upon their shoulder to claim all credits of independence struggle minus the blames for the partition, which Nehru had mishandled in every way in his hurry and greed for power, ignoring the pathetic plight of cores of hapless Bengalis and Punjabis – the two main pillars of the whole struggle.  But it becomes a cruel joke when some people, all the opportunistic and the corrupt who had a field day in the times of the family and are feeling the heat after the change, are trying to convince us the gullible people of the same. 

A family that has always been in the forefront of a regal living minus all the responsibility of the cruel blunders that borders on sedition, the Kashmir question to the much too much sacrifice for China which gave a fitting gift in reply in 1962, the dirty womanizer can also be credited to the murders of the nation’s two of the biggest jewels !! We have seen the absolute pains the party has taken for more than half a century to cover up the death issues of Subhash Bose and Shyamaprasad – while all the needles pointed to the dirty man who not only sacrificed the country’s interests in many major issues, but also ignored the most important and logical advices of leaders like Abmedkar and Patel to stop the atrocities of the crores of the hapless hindus at the time of the hasty and maneuvered partition – exchange of people and property could have helped crores of people from the murder and rapes and forced conversions and being a complete penniless paupers suddenly on one fine night – for no fault of theirs. 

Later on, Indira, with all due credit for being a very good administrator and the iron will showed in 1971, can also be credited with the murder of Lalbahadur, continued cover-up of the previous wrong-doings, keeping the economy on a tight leash that erupted a volcano of the all-round corruption and nepotism where Sanjay Gandhi had much more power than the RBI Governor or the ministers or anybody else for that matter, the “Talwar amendment “ or “Kissa kursi ka” give us a valuable insight behind many other incidents like Maruti or Kuo Oil affairs. After Indira, Rajiv Gandhi, with much more modern vision and intent, also went in the line of the family in Bofors and other cronies deals. Then with a welcome exception of the Narsimha Rao regime, the party has always hurt the nation’s interests in their governance, with a long long list of the big scams and corruption cases where the family treated the country as their virtual zamindary. 

Today Pappu is at it again. Is it his inherited property (what by the way, his forefathers do to amass such huge property anyway, we must ask) that he is trying to entice the voters with a giveaway for about 4 lac crore rupees if they come to power ? It is even much more than the entire defense budget, times of the education or health budget.  Whom is he kidding when he says that there will not be a single poor in the country ? Has he thought of the needed tax structure from this kind of cash dole and the effect on the economic indicators including the inflationary effect of  the largesse that will make the poor people beggers on one hand, crush the honest taxpayers with higher tax and inflationary effect and close down the small enterprises with worker problem simply because the workers will try to become beggers !! 

Thank you Pappu, this is what is expected from a devilish family hell-bent on their own interest above the country !!